Been a little worried that my arms are getting big, lately. I’m loving my bigger shoulders, but maybe I should stop working tri’s because my arms look “fat” at times lol. IDDKKK
It’s a sudden change in life. It might take a little while to get used to, or it could only take a few days. Either way, the feeling you get when you see them again after you’ve let them go is a bittersweet one.
When you’re letting someone go, you have to let all of them go. You have to carefully let the person them self go. Let go of the communication. Let go of their clothes, their belongings, that you still might have. Let go of the memories of them that you hold dear, just for now. Because those memories, that nostalgia, will just have you holding on to them longer.
You may lay there confused and lost for a little bit. What are you supposed to do with their things? What are you supposed to do with the plans you two had made? You planned on star gazing together one night. Planned to see a specific movie, which won’t even be out for another 5 months. Are you going to remember them when you do get the chance to star gaze - but with someone else? Are you even going to end up seeing that movie anyway? Just like memories, those thoughts are going to keep you lingering around longer. Don’t do it.
Moving on is a must to move forward in life, a must to grow and self-preserve. It hurts now, it sucks now. It’s not what you want to do at all, but eventually you will move on. I can’t tell you whether the pain actually goes away or if you just get used to it. I still haven’t figured that out completely, although right now I believe it’s the latter.
Right now, think of this as a “good-bye”. Don’t expect to see that person. Don’t expect to run into them or communicate with them. Don’t expect and don’t plan. Just live your life and focus on yourself. Once you’re past all this - once you’ve moved on, you’ll think of it more as a “see you later”. Because you’ll come across this person again, but this time you won’t feel the pain. You’ll see them with a new haircut, new clothes. A shirt you never though you’d see them in. You’ll see they’ve moved on, and you’ll be glad that you did as well. Maybe then you can pick what you want to remember about about them, because you wouldn’t be hurting.
But for now, don’t remember them. Don’t think about the way they smile when you see them. Don’t think about how perfectly they fit in your arms. How often they wanted to hold your hand. Don’t think about the way they burp when they drink their beer and the way they wiped their fingers after every bite of their burger, even when they knew they were going to get them dirty in a few seconds anyway. Don’t think about how much they sucked at drinking games, but somehow always did well when you were around. Don’t think about the birthmark on their lower chin that you always caught a glimpse of when you woke up next to them in the mornings. They way they didn’t like kissing you if you had chapstick on. Don’t have anything to remember them by and before you know it, you won’t even remember much.
You’ll have moved on.
I either feel too much or don’t feel at all. When I’m not dating, I’m like how I usually am around my friends but the moment I get my heart broken and start expressing emotions, my guy friends are all “whao, I forget that you’re a girl with feelings”.
I’m usually a ruthless sassy bitch. But a broken heart makes me a soft nigga lol.
All the hardest, coldest people you meet were once as soft as water. And that’s the tragedy of living.Iain Thomas, from I Wrote This For You (via hybridicks)
Jeffrey told me to tie my hair like Ariana Grande today except I didn’t have time to curl it so I kinda feel like Legolas instead LOL 😔 #itried #almost #longhair
Anonymous asked: why am I so fascinated by you?
Hah tell me! What’s so fascinating about me? I find myself to be quite boring, especially on Tumblr because I haven’t been as active as I used to be :/
Anonymous asked: What kind of guys do you like
I especially like the ones that can make me laugh. I like the ones that take me to places I’ve never been to before. The ones that make me feel wanted. I like the ones that put in effort to see me, even if it means for just a few minutes in their day. I like the ones that are sweet when they should be. I admire the guys that are book smart and know where they’re heading in life and how they’re going to get there. I respect the guys that respect women. I like a MAN. I like the guys that take care of their bodies and health the way I take care of mine (maybe even better). I like the ones that can teach me new things and make me want to be a better person. I love the ones that like to show me off because he’s proud to have me.
tanone asked: why dat ass so phat?
Because cornbread, squats, cardio, and genetics :)
Anonymous asked: Have you ever had a friend with benefits?
No, I’m against the idea of a FWB. It only strings people along when one starts to have feelings for the other then shit gets complicated and noooo haha. Not a good idea, at least in my opinion.
How did we go from never see each other on campus, to meeting and spending every waking moment together, to seeing each other around campus frequently but not even acknowledging each others existence and presence.