What the fuck, Houston. And this is because of a drought? It’s rained this past week. It’s expected to rain again this week. Lift this ban already. I mean, I know it’s not going to change some people’s minds about using fireworks this 4th of July anyway, but this is dumb.
It takes one nigga to change a woman’s point of view towards men. For better or for worse, for now or forever. So to all my dudes out there, be the man to prove that our general stereotype is just what it is, a stereotype. It takes a boy to play, but it takes a man to stay.
I mean, I guess he's 'different'. Or he's 'changed'.
But girl, remember that he did you wrong once. He has the ability to just do it again. I’m not saying don’t give him a second chance. You have all the right in the world to do so. But just be careful. Remember how he did you in the past and know that history can repeat itself. I’m not the only one out there that doesn’t like seeing you unhappy. I don’t want you to be crushed again, especially by the same person. I’m just saying: proceed with caution.
I just noticed something... what happened to your straight bangs?
It’s still there! I cut my bangs so that I can change it to straight or side swept anytime I want :) It started to bother me a little so I switch to side swept bangs every once in a while. Actually, most of the time haha
I can’t stand you. You have a temper problem. You have trust issues. I work hard at school and I set a good example for my little brother and sister but you think I’m the problem child. You think I’m a slut. You think I’m stupid. You make it seem like it’s been a problem to raise me and you wish you never had me. You think I’m a disgrace as a daughter, a Muslim, a human being. I studied hard and got into the University of Texas at Austin, won two scholarships, but you think it’s a burden to pay for my tuition. You kiss me at my graduation for the pictures but you didn’t even want to look at me that day because I brought my boyfriend to take a picture with me. One picture with him and his mom was all I wanted and you wouldn’t even let me have that. You hate that I’m with him. You hate that I’m happy with him and that I love him. You hate him. You hate me for growing up as an American but you’re the one that brought me here in the first place. I’ve never heard you genuinely say you’re proud of me and meant it. You didn’t even pat me on the back and say that you love me on the day of my graduation. I try to work with you and help you get money to pay for my future but you don’t even want to work with me. You never ask me how I’m doing or how’s school. You never say anything to me. I can barely even call you “Daddy” without stopping to think if I can even still call you that because you sure as hell hate calling me your daughter.
“When I graduated from high school and went to college, my brother and I took full advantage of the freedom, and cut class, partied, etc. We were fortunate enough to have parents that paid our tuition, and we wasted their money for the first two years. Our grades got worse and worse each semester, and though our GPAs were never low enough to get us on academic probation, they were pretty pathetic. One day, after our first couple years, our dad sat us down and told us if we weren’t going to take it seriously, then drop out and go back when we will. From that point on, we took things seriously, and we both finished with fairly strong GPAs, but it took those final couple of years to get out of the hole we had created for ourselves. Fortunately, I got my GPA high enough that I can go back and get my master’s without having to crush the GMAT.
So, my first piece of advice: Take school seriously. Education is important. I know when you’re young, the whole “C’s get degrees” way of thinking is cool to you, and all you want to do is party and hang out with your friends, but you really need to make it a priority. I’m 27 now, and a lot of my friends who took school seriously are finishing med school now or are on paths to much better careers than me. Some went right into the master’s program while I was off fucking around with my friends. At the time, you look at these guys and you criticize them for doing nothing but going to school all the time, but I promise you will reach a point where you wish you would have done the same. If you can go right into a master’s program, do it. Don’t waste any time. I have wasted several years now that I can’t get back, and I have very little to show for them. Set yourself apart from the rest, and continue to get an education.
My second piece of advice: Do something with your life. Make money. To quote the movie Boiler Room, “Anybody who tells you money is the root of all evil doesn’t fucking have any.” Honestly, I went through the whole phase where I thought making a lot of money was dumb and had the whole “I just want to be happy mannnn fuck money” phase, but you know what? being broke sucks dick. I know a bunch of hipster kids who think $10/hr. is all they need to be happy, but it isn’t. One of my best friends got himself in a situation where him and his girlfriend have a baby now and have to rent a house, and they are dead broke. Guess what? they aren’t happy. He’s miserable and depressed, and he complains about it constantly. I know a lot of people living paycheck to paycheck, and it’s not fun. There is nothing charming about being broke, so get off that whole idea as fast as you can. Go make something of yourself, you’ll be happy you did in the long run.
Don’t be one of those guys that says they can’t afford to go to college either, that’s bullshit. There are so many loans available, that anyone can go to college if they want to. If you say you can’t afford it, that means you’re too lazy to look for help. Start at a community college if you have to, get your undergrad work done and get good grades, and transfer to a good university. From there, you can do anything you want. A typical response to this will be “Bill Gates didn’t finish college…”, but go down the Forbes 400 richest Americans list (http://www.forbes.com/wealth/forbes-400), look up each guy, and see how many didn’t go to college. Chances are, you will never be the guy who didn’t go and end up on that list. You probably won’t ever be the guy who did go and end up on that list either, but you’ll definitely be improving your chances.
To sum things up, take school seriously. There is plenty of time to party and hang out with your friends, but make school your top priority. There is nothing uncool about doing well in school, and you’ll be glad you did in the end. Take full advantage of everything your school has to offer, join clubs, volunteer, go to games, etc. I avoided all that like the plague and I regret it. Go out and make something of yourself, and don’t be embarrassed to earn some money. I know too many people who are broke and miserable to ever believe that not having any will make you happy.”
I know to most teenagers now, school’s just whatever. We’d do just enough to get us to pass our classes and maintain an ‘okay’ GPA but later on we’d regret it and wish we did better. School is serious shit, it can make or break you. Do better NOW and not regret it later. Even if it’s your senior year, it’s not too late to do better. You have a semester or two to bring that GPA up. Maybe not by a lot but just bringing yourself up a few ranks will be okay. At least then you know that you tried and you did manage to manage school better. Study hard now. And when you’ve got the money and time, party hard later.
I put off my vacation to Europe this summer to get money for college. I don’t regret it because I would much rather focus on school right now. If I can afford it, do well in it, I’ll have all the money to celebrate and go on vacations in the future. I’m even not expecting to go on a vacation for the next 3 summers because I need to take summer classes to graduate in 4 years (most engineers at UT take 5 years to graduate).
I worked my butt off in high school and tried my best to get the highest grades I can. I have the weirdest standard for grades. If it’s not an A or a high B, it’s failing. But that standard kept my grades up high and I graduated as rank 13 of my high school. I wanted higher, but I’m very happy and I can say that I did really well in high school. And I expect myself to do just as well in college.
TJ surprised me today! He told me he finally got insurance and we can finally go out together, just us two <3 He picked me up and we went to Tutti Frutti and Taco Bell and Game Stop and we picked up Gerard, for once. It was so nice! We had a foam sword fight in Walgreens LOL. I love laughing till my stomach hurts.
AND to top off my day, I dropped that gay UGS303 Italian Cinema class that had TERRIBLE hours and I signed up for UGS303 Hard Choices, which had better timing AND it’s about things that I would be interested in.
I had a great Friday :) This week was an amazing first week of Summer!
You see this guy? This is my boyfriend. And I’m not ashamed to say that he’s my world. My biggest fear is losing him and I admit that I get really scared when we mess up or get into an argument. I break down and all these thoughts fill up my head, as much as I don’t want them to. I’ve messed up a few times and I’ve made him mad. He’s done the same with me. But we’ve managed to work things out some way, thank God. What’s the hardest thing to do is to get into an argument and not be physically with him to work things out. Talking things out on the phone isn’t as satisfying as talking in person. I can’t see if he’s really okay or if he’s really not mad at me anymore. I can’t be there to hold him. I don’t know what I’m trying to say anymore, this is just a vent I need to get out because I feel like shit and I’m hoping I’ll feel better after I type all this out. I’m just in love with this boy and I wouldn’t want to be with anyone else. I’m willing to do anything and all I can to keep him with me and in my life. We’re not the perfect couple, there’s no such thing. And I can accept that. But he’s pretty much perfect for me.